Hi friend,
If you’re reading this, maybe you’ve felt it too—that constant hum of worry in your chest, like a radio stuck on static. The kind where your brain whispers “But what if—” at 3 AM about things that wouldn’t faze most people. I’ve been there. For years, I thought I was just “a worrier.” Turns out, I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). Here’s what I wish someone had told me sooner.
What GAD Actually Feels Like
Picture this:
You replay conversations from five years ago, cringing at things nobody remembers.
Your to-do list feels like a jenga tower on a earthquake.
“Relaxing” makes you antsy because “Shouldn’t I be doing something productive?”
It’s not just stress—it’s your brain’s alarm system stuck in overdrive. And no, you can’t “just stop thinking about it.” (If only!)
The Day I Realized This Wasn’t Normal
I hit my breaking point when I:
Cancelled three coffee dates in a row because “What if we run out of things to talk about?”
Googled symptoms until my hands shook (ironic, right?).
Burst into tears because my partner asked “What do you want for dinner?” (Too many options = panic.)
My therapist gently said: “Anxiety is like carrying an invisible backpack full of bricks. You’ve had it so long, you forgot you could put it down.”
What Actually Helped Me (No Toxic Positivity Here)
1. Therapy Wins
CBT Magic: My therapist had me test my “disaster predictions.” Spoiler: 90% never happened. The other 10%? I handled them.
Body Scans: Clenched jaw? White-knuckled phone grip? Now I catch tension early.
2. Meds Aren’t Failure
Starting Lexapro felt like admitting defeat—until it gave me breathing room between thoughts. Not a “happy pill,” but a “Oh, this is how ‘normal’ people feel?” revelation.
3. Weird Little Lifesavers
“Worry Time”: I vent all my fears into a voice memo at 5 PM. The rest of the day? “Not now, brain.”
Ice Cube Trick: Holding one shocks my system out of spirals. Science-y term: “Dive reflex.”
Comedy Podcasts: Laughter physically loosens my chest. (Try “Anxiety Chats with Liza Kindred”.)
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What Didn’t Work (So You Can Skip It)
“Just meditate!” (Couldn’t sit still until meds/therapy helped first.)
Essential oils. Nice smell, zero effect on my doom-spirals.
People saying “You’re overreacting.” (Cool, now I’m anxious and pissed.)
If You See Yourself in This…
Screen yourself: Take the GAD-7 (link below). Score >10? Worth discussing with a doc.
Find your people: r/Anxiety on Reddit made me feel less alien.
Be the friend you need: Next time anxiety whispers “You’re broken,” whisper back: “No, I’m a warrior with a glitchy alarm system. And glitches can be fixed.”
Free Resources That Helped Me:
A Note for the Exhausted
Healing isn’t linear. Some days I still eat lunch over my keyboard, convinced “taking a break” will make my world implode. But now I know: GAD is a liar. And you? You’re stronger than you think.
P.S. If this resonated, share it with someone who “gets it.” Or save it for your next 3 AM worry session. You’ve got this. 💛